He’s perfect… I honestly start shaking when I’m anywhere near a 5ft radius of him. Sometimes I think he just greets me to see if I’ll faint – which is quite dangerous… because I really will if he talks for more than 2 minutes. When I see him this spark shoots out in the centre of my stomach and ripples to every inch of my body and I just want to faint. He’s my role model – in almost every way. He is just the right age – about a year older than me. But I can’t spend more than 5 minutes in his presence without fainting or loosing consciousness…

this is a problem…

After writing this… I realize…

I give up :’(