Ok so i knew i would fall by the wayside over christmas but i did not for see just how much i would ‘sod the healthyness!’ i went out with my friends almost everynight, most times ending up in a kebab shop at the early am’s eating fatty rubbish on top of lots of spirits (oh the calories!!!) then of course theres christmas meals and chocolate and yes more alcohol and drunken trips to subway. I told myself i didnt care but i have shirked stepping on the scales until today so evidently i knew i would care and im a little horrified at myself. Gained 5lbs in two weeks!I am finding it really hard to loose 1 or 2 pounds so why is it so easy to gain 5? grrrrrrr! well its taken me a while to admit it to myself as ive been living happily in the land of reckless indulgence but im back at college now, and holiday is over! I need to tell myself (and my body) christmas is finished and gone with it is the ‘who cares’ attitude ive applied to my eating. I have exams so im not going out for the next 3 weeks and im back to the gym tomorrow. As hard as it is i need to get out of the ‘treating myself’ mentality – i can have a treat when ive done something worthy of one! (i.e actually done something about this) so here we go again. 15 pounds to go!!!

weight: 145
Goal weight: 130