Are you in high school? I only ask because I don’t see why you seem so down unless maybe its a form of being humble…you know like why should I be another smiling spoiled empty skirt with too many toys in such a sad world. I mean I was always sad in school. I hated every damn day of it to the point of being physically ill,but all that passed as soon as I graduated. If thats not it then consider this, a lot of guys know your beautiful. Youre a young, single free American in great shape! Are you sad because you don’t feel like you deserve a good life? Why not? Pressure to live up to an impossible standard? If you enjoy pretending to be a loser thats ok but if you think you really are then I suggest you be patient until you get out into the world and see for yourself how valuable you really are…trust me, graduate and take a summer job,a regular full time job, b4 college and you’re whole perspective will change…just survive for now! If you care about anyone at all then stop hurting yourself because you are tearing them apart inside! Two of the closest people in my life killed themselves over 15 years ago and I still cry for them…my world will never be right again w/out them…and by the worlds standards they were total losers…but I loved them with all my heart and now they are gone. When you cant live for yourself, live for the ones you love, and for the ones you will love. dont break their hearts and rip out their minds the way mine was. I am poor and I work hard. I am ugly and 36. I am fat and have bad teeth. I can’t breath through my nose so my mouth is open most of the time. Somehow my nieces and nephews can’t see any of this and love me as though i’m perfect…i will never put them through what I endured! I will suffer this world and everything it thinks it has left just for one more minute with them! The evil of this world will never match the love I have for them! Decide to love someone with all your heart and your life will never be the same!