I am so happy right now. I am so glad I followed my gut and called my bf tonight. I realize that it’s always true to follow what your heart tells you. No matter what all that advice those love experts told me….I still took time to listen to my heart. I prayed for him every night…every night I prayed dying for him to accept me and to trust me and to give me a chance…ive never honestly been so thankful in my entire fing life…ive never been so happy as I am in my whole entire fing life….I’m so glad I didn’t lose him…I was so close to losing him… I just cannot wait until the day I see him…that day I see my bf, I will hold him so tight & never ever let him go again. I’m even happier that he gave me a chance to even talk to him, I’m even happier that he told me he trusts me even more than before now. I swear to I will make this relationship work. I am so happy right now words cannot ever describe these feelings deep down to the pit of my soul. After we finishing talking and when he said give me a call tomorrow…I thought ….you bet your sweet ass I’ll call you tomorrow. When we talked I felt similar to the way I was when we first started talking…nervousness…not knowing the right things to say…being all cute…impressing you just for him to be mine. Butterflies and all. Like I told him before…I don’t wanna give you up and I wont put you down because your special to me. I want this night to last forever. he honestly breathed life into my soul tonight….he made me feel alive again……I just feel bad for the pain that he went through…and that he’s overcoming……I will make sure this doesn’t happen…..I cant wait for the day when I can let free all of my emotions like birds from a cage….ughh i feel so good when i write out my feelings..