This accomplishes all three- surprising, inspiring and terrifying. I have always taken the money because I have done so much work for them but in reality I have just used that as an excuse not to have to make my own decisions and with a mother with a strong personality it was just easier…plus there were alot of perks. The time has come thought for me to see what I am made of and strike out on my own. Hmmm….now I just have to figure out what I want to do! I have never had this kind of freedon before.