I grew up in a nonreligious household. My mother, how was brought up Catholic, did not Baptize most of her children. She thought that we should make the decision for ourselves when we felt we should.
Now, I feel lost. I have a need for faith in my life, and now faith to call my own. I have a very close friend who has a very distinct, strong faith…and I envy that. It worries me that I haven’t worked out what it is I believe and don’t believe.
I want a personal relationship with God…or whatever it is I have in my heart.
On the other hand, I don’t want whatever it is I find to be a nice white fence I put up to keep out all the bad things in this world that scare me.