I always have my eyes to the ground looking for all sorts of notes and scraps of other people’s lives. I guess that makes me voyeur or something, who knows. Because of the poor eduaction system at my school, generally the notes are unintentionally hilarious due to poor grammer.

I found this note in the hallways of my school a few months ago and instantly became my all time favorite. In spite of the poor grammer I couldn’t help but be overwhelmed by the profound sadness and emotion in this note. I thought you might enjoy it:

1st handwriting:
“Whats up Jackie. What’s going on?”

2nd handwriting:
“Nothing Much, I really tired though Damon called last Night and I was up until 1 somethin. He kept saying how much he loved and missed me and how sorry he was how I desearved better and he wished he had lost his verginity to me and how he hoped I felt the same. He did all of the talkin I was eaither saying yeah uhuh no or mabe. I was hald asleep. He was like you are the only girl I’ve ever loved and your up there with my mom and sister and if you don’t me to drink or smoke no more, I promis for you only I’ll stop. I started to cry.”

I don’t what exactly it is that I love about this. Maybe the incongruency the note presents: Like on the one hand this is written at a middle school level and the boy says he loves this girl like his mom or sister but on the other hand it deals with mature issues like drinking, smoking, and sex. Maybe it’s just that he tells this girl he loves her like he loves his mom. Maybe it is that he is willing to give up his selfish habits for this girl, that uncorrupted, wide-eyed innoncent true love.

But I think I like it best because of the ending. The whole note the girl seems stoic and hard-hearted, like she couldn’t give a shit about this boy. Then at the end her human side breaks through as she simply writes that she started to cry.

It all feels so unresovled, I wish I knew who these people were so I could find out if the optimistic hopes of youth love prevail or if the cynic in me is right and they found this to be only a passing interest.

So, my advice, leave that secret, someone like me could find it and really treasure it.