try to express myself, but everything I say sounds so wrong. I would love to tell my mom how much I adore her, but when I try, I get so mad at myself and give up. Sometimes she thinks I don’t love her enough, and my heart wants to break in two, because I love her so much. I’d do anything to make her happy. Maybe I’m just too scared to let go; to lose myself in all the emotions of love and pain and happiness and and and…