i always seem to get stuck in these relationships with a person who doesn’t fit my dream. then i convince myself that this is as good as it’s going to get and i just have to learn to live with it and be happy that i got somebody. but then i’m miserable and can’t figure out why. i’m not even really sure what i want… and i’m stuck on the idea that the kind of man that i want, won’t want me back. it doesn’t matter that i’m one of the most awesome, caring, funny, charismatic women he’ll ever meet- i’m fat, i don’t have any hobbies or intrests, or time to develop any… (yes, i know that’s not true- it’s just what goes on in my head). it’s funny how when i’m not dealing with a potential love interest, i have all the confidence in the world, but as soon as i start thinking there’s chemistry, i get all … dumb. that’s the only word for it…
i wonder what that’s all about…