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I have plenty courage to move on without them 2 years ago

He won’t let me. To this day, he continues to torture me. No, he doesn’t lay a hand on me, but the torture continues.

How did I get trapped in my own damn house?

There’s no escape.

And even if I did, I have no where to go…

Jan 26, 2007, 04:00PM PST | 1 cheer

~*Serenity*~ ... Smiles...

what?

you know where I am now!!

Jan 26, 2007, 04:16PM PST | Thread | Respond to this 1 cheer

thanks :)

Jan 26, 2007, 06:26PM PST | Respond to this

I just don’t know if I can put into words what happened last night.

What I can say, is THAT was a part of my life I thought was over.

I’m having problems with this “allow myself” thing. I clearly don’t have control of what he does or what he says.

Oh sure, I told him to leave. Exactly how do I make him leave?

I could leave myself, yeah right… By doing what?

He is bigger and stronger and WHAT good comes from physical confrontation, Mom vs Dad infront of the kids. I won’t do it.

How am I allowing this to happen? I have no fucking choice over what is happenning.

I don’t want responses here. Don’t tell me all the things YOU would do.

YOU are not ME.

I don’t want sympathy, I don’t want ideas, I don’t want anything.

I’m just writing my feelings down.

Jan 27, 2007, 03:37AM PST | Respond to this 2 cheers