right now, I am experiencing that pang of hollow emotional dispair. I think I feel a break up coming on, or at least a separation with my boyfriend/supposed fiance. I’m upset, so I”m certainly not thinking straight, and serenity is pretty far from here…... but God, please, let me maintain a small amount of dignity throughout hte next several months. must I completely unravel? I pray I only unravel half way…... that seems manageable. I have done this before, this is not a new situation, but it still hurts. It will take courage to change what I can, and let everything else go…...