Probably stupid.

I was so angry about not getting to go to the lecture that I went. I ran over to the other building in time for it to start and I sat through it.

I was going to go completely insane sitting in my office… I felt like Michael had taken yet another thing away from me… my love for intellectual pursuit. There is no way that I am going to let him take more from me.

It was hard to see him. He got his hair cut. I like it better when it has grown in a little but it was getting shaggy and he really needed one. He did a great job with his part in the presentation as well. It was good to see. I know that he struggles with that.

I really do love him. The sight of him makes me shake uncontrollably. I miss him so much right now.

There is another lecture next week which I have signed up for on a topic that I am very interested in. He is unlikely to speak at that one but I know the person that is hosting the event and told him that I would be sure to come. And, I refuse to back out.

Seeing him is so hard though.