I was miserable about losing someone that I loved. But honestly he made it easier by being an absolute ass. By treating me the way that he did, I am able to say that he doesn’t derserve me.

Am I over him yet? No… but I feel like I have walked a step closer to the door.

I was also lucky enough to spend some time with my ex (and my son) yesterday. He is a great guy and will hopefully be my friend forever but I really did make the right choice in leaving. Even over a year later, we are able to get extremely tense around each other within a short time. The funny thing is that we are both trying so hard for the sake of our son and we still get completely edgy around each other. It helped me remember that the last year of our marriage was nothing more than a low grade cat fight.

So here I am.

I am alone but the good news is that my son is the cutest thing on the planet, I have a good job, I love my little house, and I am pretty damn cute. So there is hope yet.

Where to go from here?

I had the honor to know an old couple who had been together since high-school…they were both in their 80s before Betty died from cancer…I knew them both for almost 5 years and since the day I met them, they always held hands… That is what I am looking for. I wish that I knew how to find it.