Listening to the discussions regarding the events surrounding the arrest of a NASA astronaut I have come to realize that achievement can be the greatest stumbling point for anyone.

After something as monumental as going into space – something that only a handful of people have done – what’s next ? Listening to the news analysts and interviews with former astronauts, it seems reasonable that feeling like there isn’t much ‘next’ is quite possible.

I have come to realize that many of my own personal struggles come from achieving so many of the things that I sought to achieve at an early age. Once my situation changed, I was not sure what was next – where do I go ? It has taken a great deal of soul searching, and more heartache than I could have imagined, but now I see myself as a child looking into a box of Legos and seeing all the possibilities. The trick with Lego is figuring out what goes where.

Just because I often feel very much like a has been, doesn’t mean I cannot become a ‘gonna be.’

So on whom am I seeking revenge?

Me. More specifically that little voice inside me that whispers those doubts all too often.