i feel like drinking had been an issue for me since i was 15 when i first started going to the pub. I have always felt my friends liked me more when i was drunk. its got to the point now four years later that i don’t think my friends know the real (sober) me. If i havn’t had a drink yet i get really bored. People start to talk around me rather than with me and i feel uncomfortable. I don’t see myself as a shy or unconfident person but i don’t have very much self respect. When i drink i really drink i get so drunk anything can happen. I do feel like any major mistakes i’ve made in my life (and there’s enough of them) have happend when or been a result of being drunk. So anyway i have a new man in my life now and it’s time to grow up, he has told me straight he doesn’t like my binge drinking and he worries about it a lot. He has asked me to cut down. He explained to me that i don’t need to get that drunk. I don’t rneed to get so drunk i don’t know what i’m doing and i wake up at four in the morning not knowing who i’m with or where i am. So last night he challenged me, to go out have a couple of drinks, know when to stop and then come home. And i did. I went to the bar, bought two bottles of corona drank them and chatted to my friends then was home for 10. It felt great because i managed to talk to my friends without being paraletic and enjoyed a couple of drinks. J was so proud of me which felt really good too. I’m going to try and do this once a week because then i still get to see my friends which i have always worried might stop if i didnt drink as much.