...and other such passionate things that I used to do with my husband, after finishing an entry for “Kissing in the Rain” elsewhere on this website. And then I got to thinking… we don’t do that stuff anymore. I can’t remember the last spontaneous kiss that we had, I can’t remember the last time we held hands or raced down a hill like children… We have been through a lot together, and in the process we have hurt each other a lot as well. I have been especially hurt by many of his actions throughout our four year relationship, and now I find myself living life in a fortress, behind a brick wall that doesn’t allow him to get through and hurt me again… but it also prevents me from loving him and being loved by him, the way we used to be… Granted, we might never go back to being the same carefree couple, but we still have the potential to be so much more than we are now, if only I could let things go and let my guard down again… This will be a hard goal to accomplish, as I’d have to learn to forgive four years of heartache, but I am definitely willing to take on the challenge if it means kissing him in the rain again. :)