I don’t really feel like I’ve ever been loved before, by other people and consequently not by myself. I think that’s kind of the root of a lot of the problems in the rest of my life. Honestly, I don’t just not love myself, I particularly don’t like myself. How messed up is that? It’s kind of like that guy at work who you can’t stand to be around but you have to put up with him because it’s work and he’s always there… I need to find some way around it and just love myself because if I don’t, I will never get to do any of the things I want to do in life.
Keep Your Head Up
I know what you mean. I feel EXACTLY like you do, and it’s kinda annoying. Like, how I know deep in my heart that I’m a okay person, but my heart just can’t seem to convince my brain to stop producing feelings of self-doubt.
Sometimes I marvel at the fact that if I wasn’t me, I wouldn’t like myself. For example, if I was someone else on the outside looking in, I would totally try to avoid me! (sorry, that came out a little weird but I don’t know how else to explain it)
I hope you keep searching your heart for self-love. It’s a tragedy when people give up hope, and I don’t want you to do that. I’m sure you’ll be able to fulfill your dreams in life. Keep trying!
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