After not hearing much of anything from M all week, I saw her out at the bar with some mutual friends last night. I saw her making out with a friend of a friend. Granted, there’s no official attachment between us, no rules, and she was drinking… A short time later, she came over to me and kissed me. I kissed her back, and asked if I was taking her home with me or if I should find some other girl to go home with. (Not that I really would…necessarily.) I told her I’d much prefer to take her home. She kissed me again, then wandered off after a little more conversation. A few minutes later, I looked over to see her making out with the first girl again. At that point I knew I couldn’t handle any more, so I left. I ran into some friends and went to the nearby burger place with them, then on my way home I sent M a text message: “You’re killing me, girl. I can’t do this anymore.” I got a drunken response from her. So today, figuring that she wouldn’t remember that, I told her basically that I wanted her to know I didn’t think she’d done anything wrong, since obviously she can make out with whoever she wants, but I just can’t handle watching her do it right in front of me, especially right after kissing me. I told her that my feelings for her were too much for me to be able to deal with that. She apparently didn’t recall having kissed me. I ended the text exchange with “So yeah. I can’t hang. Sorry.” Ha. Hopefully I got my point across. (Her fantastically expressive response was, “k”.)

As opposed to the last time I tried to end things with her, I’ve removed the keychain she gave me from my keyring, as well as getting rid of a few other reminders of her. I also made my best long-distance friend promise to talk me out of it if I was tempted to date M again.

On a more positive note, I met a girl Wednesday night, and spent Friday evening with her. She’s recently out of a relationship and thus not ready to jump into anything, which is really a good thing, and we got along extremely well and had a great time. :)