It’s day 13 and this is not getting any easier. Last two weeks have been pretty stressful but I am still thankfull for not smoking pot and/or cigarettes.
I got my Bachelors degree last couple of month ago and I have been struggling find a job that would give me an opportunity to grow and use my degree (and make good money while I am at it.) It’s proving to be difficult and somewhat disappointing but I am sure something will work out (they always have.)
I have been nicotine-free for over two month and pot-free for almost two weeks yet I still feel “side effects” from quitting both. I’ve come to a realization about an hour ago that my efrustration and agitation is the worst side effect. I can confidently say that I am one of the nicest people you will ever meet yet I have been a total dick recently. I just yelled at my beloved Mac laptop for… well, no reason. I decided to remodel a bathroom at my friend’s house while on vacation (go ahead, call me a workaholic) and have spent the last two days bitching for no reason (keep in mind that the guy is one of my best friends and have spent thousands on my college education among many other things.)
I hate being mean, it just sucks. I will try meditating tomorrow and implement self-control. We’ll see where that takes me.
Keep me updated on what’s going on. All of your entries make me feel responsible (?) for making sure that I don’t fail and don’t let ya’ all down.
Peace
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stick in there...
I quit smoking cigs about two years ago, and Quitnet.com really helped me. I was actually VERY excited to find 43 Things because it’s the closest I’ve found to Quitnet, but for pot. Maybe that would help for you if you haven’t already checked it out.
I hope the meditation helps. I’m starting a self-defense course this Sunday – hoping it will help me get rid of the feelings of aggression and irrational anger I’m feeling since I smoked post last. By the way, congrats on 13 days (and two months with the cigs)!!! It’s an AWESOME accomplishment.
- Anna
RESPECT!!!
I really respect what you’re doing – and I totally understand where you’re coming from with the anger.
That’s always been my stumbling block. I’ve always used pot to calm down – and I think I’ve forgotten how to cool it naturally alltogether. I’m hoping that I’ll soon find some ways to stay calm – my poor kids are getting it in the neck at the moment – and I feel SO guilty.
Every time I’ve tried to quit before, I’ve given in, telling myself I’m a nicer person when I stoned. In fact I’m just a weak, sad fool, and I just need to get my shit together and find some strength!
You can’t be a total dick – or you wouldn’t be feeling bad about it! You are doing so well, and I really respect you for it! As for shouting at your laptop – been there! I’ve cursed and shouted over so many little things lately – adrenaline pumping round, and a red mist surrounding my daily routine!
I started Tai Chi class a few weeks back – and it’s fabulous! For those couple hours, I’m so centered, and so in control of myself. I just need to carry that feeling over into the real world!
Anyway guy, keep on keepin on – you’re doing an amazing job – and I’m sure your friend will understand – after all, while you’re bitching at him, you’re also doing a damn good job on his house – that’ll last much longer than your hissy fits!
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