My life goal was to be married in an LDS temple and I was when I was 18 years old. The returned missionary I married was having affairs before and during our marriage. I refused to believe what friends and family told me and I defended my husband for nearly two years. I finally WOKE UP and divorced him and stopped going to church. The LDS members are very persistant and kept tracking me down (for 15 years) to “be nice” to me. I formally quit the church and had my name removed. Thirty years went by and I was SURE I would never be interested in the LDS faith again. Just over a year ago I felt a twing of a former testimony and refused to listen to it. About six months ago I suddendly realized (in an instant, with nothing spectacular happening at all) that I still believed and had already returned spiritually - without even knowing it! I was re-baptized in April 2005 and finally my life is beginning to have hope. The thirty years away from the church was what I call a “tantrum” - I was angry that my husband was unworthy and therefore I must of been wrong about the church too. I am glad to be back, it has not been all easy and I strive each day to recommit myself to this better way of living.