live my life on my own terms, not trying to live up to the expectations of others (read all 4 entries…)

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I would love to be a part of a family where there is love, respect, compassion, and support. But, the reality of it is that I am constantly criticized, blamed and guilt-ridden. I have been taking care of my mother for over a decade and my sister berates me for being selfish and acting as if the world revolves around me. I have spent over $12K on items for my mother and her household while I could have used that money towards my own place! Now, tell me how does that make ME selfish? Why do I keep trying? Why do I keep looking for their approval when it will never be forthcoming? Why can’t I live my own life without feeling guilty about it?

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Thank you for your kind words. I’ll try not to let them get me down but, it sure is difficult not getting sucked into all the drama. It is almost like a soap opera, so pathetic.


 

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