i havent cut for very long, just like a month or two but i really want to stop. im always wearing sweatshirts, which is okay for now becuase its still really cold out… but i dont know what im going to do when warm weather gets here…
at a school dance recently, even though i was dying of heat exaustion, i wouldn’t take my sweatshirt off and when my friend tryed to take it off for me i started freaking out.
the only person that knows is my best friend. she promised she wouldn’t tell anyone if i promised to stop. i’ve probably broken that promise atleast 10 times now. but i really want to stop.
im thinking of going to counceling at my school… i just hope that they dont tell parents because i know my mom would freak and feel so guilty and i would feel horrible. i know i have to tell her i just need sometime.
i hate it. i cut when i feel stupid or frusterated or angery… it just kinda slips… but im really making an effort now.