the dangerous lane ( i would like to call it the “all embracing” lane), so to speak, is the journey to the goal.
Embracing where you are right now,trusting that you will find the perfect job or it will find you is the hardest part ,it is the part that will challenge you the most and the part where you will learn so much.Even embracing the part of you that isn’t strong all the time. You don’t have to be strong to get to where you want to go you just need to stay true to your self. Which isn’t so easy and i guess you do need to be strong and persistant to remain connected with that self.
In the end ,the dangerous lane will become the shortest route because that is where you will find this job. By trying to look for answers as to where the short route is now you might be missing the lessons that could actually lead you to the job.
I think you should try to create all this laughter, love and freedom you want in a job , in your life right now.
I’m sorry , i just re read this and it seems as though i’m lecturing you. I’m really just sharing my thoughts. I don’t like using the word “should”. I don’t have anyones answers but the ones i’ve discovered in my life and this is just what i’m sharing with you.
Maybe it will help? Either way it is interesting to hear different ideas i guess!
Also,I can't lead you!!! My ego thinks it was sweet of you to ask though! I wouldn't know how to and i just couldn't. It is your own path of discovery! Anything can happen! Have fun!