...so stressed out about this. I don’t know what has changed; they’re just as unsaved as they were a few weeks ago, but for some reason it has been killing me recently. I mean almost making me physically sick; like random panic attack in the middle of the day; it is begining to consume my thoughts. I think it’s because I feel so guilty. I feel like I should have, could have, need to do more. Some of the people I don’t feel like I have that kind of relationship with. Yeah I love them more than just about anything, but we just don’t talk. I don’t know if it’s because I just don’t like who they are or what. My grandma used to always say “I love you, but I sure don’t like ya” that’s the way I feel about some of ‘em. I love them; I ‘clare I do, but I just don’t like them or the things that they do, but I still want more than almost anything in the world for them to come to the saving knowledge of Christ, seriously, that’s pretty much all I want Out of life. I dunno… this just might do it; this may successfully send me crazy. I’m so conflicted… conflicted not about what I need to do, but HOW in the world to do it. I’ve kinda began talking with some of them about it, but not necessarily in depth or to any real avail as of yet, but I trust God to fill in the gaps. I know if I would just take the initiative, He will do the rest, but I’m so… I dunno I’m friggin’ confused. NEway, I have got to get this checked off; it’s pretty much life and death…