can i write that on my hand for easy reference…LOL!!!

Yup, the inlaws are extremely “civil”...his mother has her own little agenda running…but that doesn’t mean i have to buy into it…i actually love her a lot, she was an awesome mother in law…there is just a small problem, called “he’s my boooyyyy and he is SORRY NOW, and he is BETTER NOW….and you know what your Mum and Dad would think if they were still alive…your Mum would understand how lonely you will be”

sigh…the things we listen to, nod and smile politely at…for the sake of being civil…this was a few months back. I was calm and said we would have to agree to disagree…she said, “oh well, as long as you are not thinking of divorce, because the children shouldn’t really suffer, they are much happier when their parents stay married…gosh, i even knew a couple where the husband had a brain tumour and beat the wife, she left for a while, but they fixed it up, the children are so much happier now, now they are back together again…”

just a minute…BANGS HEAD ON WALL…that’s better…

none of this will come up again…it is all nice and genteel and civil…i’m not gonna be the one to crack the civilised veneer…i can swear and smoke and scream all the way home if i have to, by myself, in my truck…lol!!!!

And the most important thing, anyway, isn’t me, him, or the inlaws….it’s my kids. That’s their Grannie…always will be….they will ALWAYS get to see her….no matter what.

Believe me, they are good at “civil”...pity it doesn’t mean the gossiping and rumours stop…it’s all surface, all bout what people think….i’m not helping either, by refusing to take back my place in the family and be the good little wife i’ve always been…it must be awfully confusing for them really….:(

don’t mind me….it is a bit complicated…but when is it ever not??? All i’ll be saying to myself tomorrow is “smile….head up….dignity”....and “YOU’RE DOING THIS FOR YOUR KIDS” :)