I am going to use this as my free association blog. To talk about my thoughts unedited and unfiltered. Live with the spelling mistakes and the lack of caps or grammar. I am here to be freee of self and restrictions to open up and have it all. In the process if you like what i am saying or wish to share in the adventure, jump in.

I live in NYC. Been here for years. going through a minor midlife crisis, just shaved my head! all of it off! Took off 10 years in the process. I am now 32 rather than the other number.

Male, slightly over weight and out of shape. Good looking if that kind of thing matters to you, I gave up on that as my hair gathered around my ankles in my early 20’s. Pain misery and suffering. hats hats hats.

Now I am wondering where the time went. Career OK, Family, intense, health in decline. Did I mention I am out of shape? 5’ 10” 190lbs. Heart beat 78. Back in the day when I biked 40 miles a day and danced til my toe nails came off I was 145 wet, with a resting heart beat of 48. No walking out of the subway gets my pulse racing. When did I fall apart?

How often do I do this, daily, weekly or as the feeeling hits me?

I love a girl, does she love me, do I take the plunge or wait for her to make the play. sexexex, not today, at least not all things have fallen away.