I’m sick. I guess i have a sinus infection or something, but I can’t breathe and I’m hacking all kinds of stuff up. My throat is raw and my ears hurt. So it’s 10:08 a.m. I went out the past couple of nights and smoked a bunch, Now I reeeeally can’t breathe. I’m sitting at my desk at work and I’m out of breath. I’m 26 and I’ve been smoking 10+ years. It’s terrible. And I’m a true “smoker”. I’m not someone who smokes when I’m out, or when I drink, etc. I’m not one of the lucky “I can take it or leave it” people. I wanna smoke all the time. When I get up, after eating, before bed, when I drink coffe, when I drink alcohol, when I’m outside…it’s just getting worse and I have to stop.

So I figure now is as good a time as ever. I’m already sick so my breathing is twice as bad. And I’m gonna feel like crap anyway, right? Might as well do it now. So Anyway, I guess I’ll get one of those quit counter things and start it at 10:00 this morning. So here we gooooo…..

I’m going to make this (43things.com for those of you reading this in my livejournal) my default page on my computer so I can keep a constant reminder. I guess I’ll just get on here really quick when I want to smoke. Or maybe I’ll write something….or something. We’ll see.

I’ve quit once before, for a few months and what people say is right…NEVER TAKE ANOTHER DRAG or it’s all effed.

Wish me luck! No, not luck…I won’t quit smoking by luck. Wish me Strength!