I’m hanging in. I smoked for 30+ years. You don’t unlearn that overnight. I want a cigarette. But I don’t want to be a smoker, and that’s the thought that keeps me going. I want to be FREE.

I have to be careful. I am an argument looking for a place to happen, but I know that, so I am just trying to be aware and kind to myself and others.

I tried it with the patch for a week, and then, silly me, tried it without the patch for a week. Yes, I slipped. Um.. the patch HELPS. Duh! I am back on the patch, having learned my lesson.

I took my dogs for a walk last night and didn’t have to find a pocket for my cigs! It was nice to have my hands free. I find I am enjoying that freedom more and more.