Save myself from myself particularly my horrid imaginings of death by PMDD
The costume was beautiful yet the performance was rather lack luster 2 years ago

In my other posts, I have mentioned feeling slightly edgy, somewhat ill-tempered, there’s no way to be poetic about it, I have been suffering in silence about PMDD for the past two years.

Nearly to the point of madness, I thought it wise to seek treatment. After all this is the 21st century. I thought my suffering was needless. How wrong I was.

As it turns out there has been little research about women’s hormonal imbalances. If I had known the doctor would threaten to 51/50 me, I would have not dressed so beautifully on Monday. I would have snarled and cried and gnashed my teeth as to earn the right to lose all my rights and be locked up. I ask you! Heavy bleeding, migraines, depression, irritability to the point of rage (notice I have not mentioned harming myself or someone else) bloating, and other horrendous symptoms that men would gladly hurl themselves off very tall buildings in order to escape. Crazy? You idiot!

I took a deep breath in and shook my head in a rather standard way as to say, “Oh Dear doctor, I have met you many a time in many different guises and simply cannot be bothered with your misogynistic diagnosis that I am simply another crazy chick that needs Zoloft.

Since PMDD has been recorded in history books as far back as Hippocrates, one would think that I might garner some relief. But no, I suffer in silence.

Won’t you all come forward ladies? So that we do not destroy are children and make our men leave. Am I all alone? Is there no-one else.

I bought a lovely perfume that day. Fortunately, I was able to fight the stick without assistance from a “Doctor”. It was an allergic reaction to soap. Now I smell beautiful again. Help me, please.



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CropTillDawn~ Fragile? Must be Italian!

My hubby notices it before I do

I mark it off in my calendar, but he will tell me, Dawn go take your Prozac!It’s just like a had a glass of wine, it just calms me down. I take Paxil,Topamax,& Naprosyn for my Fibromyalgia.(plus a ton of vitamins) I put myself in Time-Out all this week and ate Heavenly Hash Ice-cream in my darkened bedroom. I got this way after I had the kids. I’m not a danger to anyone, I’m just super crabby :(

Pray for a solution.

If I have learned one thing, it’s that there is ALWAYS a solution for EVERYTHING. Prayer is a powerful force. You’re not wasting your time and words, releasing them into the atmosphere without someone listening to them. Prayers are logged in Heaven. Along with each prayer is the answer. God revealed that to be very clearly one time, when I was crying out for help. There is order to God and to Heaven. So seek the answer. There is an answer for your individual pathway of healing. Prayer works! I hope you will stay with it until you have the answer. If God created us, He most definitely has the solution about how to fix us.

Best wishes. Alena.


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