I understand how sometimes the next day, you lose that feeling you had during the conversation, because that always happens to me. And I’ve always attempted to write it down while I’m in the conversation or right after otherwise you lose the feeling and , well what’s the point of right it down when you’re not feeling it at that moment. I’ll make a pact with you if you want: next time we’re totally in that feeling, right away after that conversation, we HAVE to pick up a pen or pencil and write down everything we’re feeling. ok?
Also, I think in a sense, your parents will be disappointed that you didn’t spend the money on what you said you were going to (lied), but they’ll also feel really good knowing their child is thinking about the future and saving up.
If you ask me, I’d feel bad keeping the money saved up without them knowing it, and I’d also feel bad going and spending this money on myself knowing I lied. But I wouldn’t feel bad telling them that i’ve been saving all that money through kind of a lie, and then doing what i want with the money, as long as they aren’t totally against it. Because i know they’d be happy you demonstrated good money management(which will make them feel safer about your future) but I don’t know if they’d be angry about the lying thing. All parents are different.
I also think that becoming a better person is kind of an abused expression. Because nowadays, becoming a better person, is basically saying, I want to be more like the ideal person that everybody is trying to be. But what may be Better to one person maynot be better to another,you know? So this is what i think: There’s two a person. There’s the person you are (the person that everyone else sees you as, the way you act around everyone else) and there’s the person yo want to be (who has all the virtues and gifts and happiness that you want to have). And a lot of life is trying to go from the first person, to the second. And once you reach the second, life will just be… good…happy. You will be confertable with yourself. And you’ll be happy deep down inside (because you know yourself) , no matter what’s going on, on the outside (ex: bad relationships, family death, school…).
I don’t know how any action will affect any one person, but i do know that if you feel that that action (and it’s consequences) have the potential to affect you, then you will gain something from it. Why else would you be worried about the results of your actions? An unwaisted action seems like something you don’t learn anything from doing. I think it was worth doing as long as it affects you ex:makes you feel happy, regret, remorse, anger, sadness… as long as it affects you.
I do want to point out that i have no idea if what i said is right or not, but it does feel right to me when i say it. I hope that helps. What do you think of it?
And thanks for joining me in my goal.
