but he makes it difficult to be understanding sometimes. And sometimes I find it difficult to believe that we have the same parents because we had all had a wonderful childhood with caring and loving parents that did the best they could. How come then my sisters and I grew up to be independent, respectful and resourceful and he turned out needy, resentful and hurtful? I actually dont mind him too much, he can be funny and generous, but he can snap at any time and just be so cruel. I always get the feeling with him that everything comes at a price, like he’ll be kind and loving one moment so you let your guard down and tell him something about yourself and then the next thing you know he uses it against you. I can take it most of the time but he throws a lot of crap to my younger sister who can be very sensitive. I’m not saying we have to be best friends, i think, mostly I would like to talk about him with pride instead of bitterness…and not have to tread carefully when I see him. Most of all though, most of all, I want my parents to stop defending him so much. I just dont want to hear like I’ve heard so many times in the past “be the bigger person”. But I guess that’s what parents are supposed to do, right? Anyway enough for tonight.