but I am willing to commit to the change. I will not shy away from things I want just because they might turn out badly. I won’t suffer from lack of trying. I will not be afraid of the switch from depression to happiness. I will endevour to feel more alive, rather than feeling as though I merely exist. And most importantly I will forgive myself for all the things I imagine I am lacking. Too often, I find myself “wallowing in self pity.” This time would be better spent doing anything else.