What do you do when you thought you had the answer; but you have just been living a lie. I exist, I go through the motions, my boyfriend of over 16 years is a crack addict, I thought I understood the disease but he relapsed again and it just keeps bringing me down, I wanted to support him in his recovery but I feel like he isn’t even trying anymore, no he is once again homeless I know I can not have him live with me, he just brings me down even more because I feel helpless, so thats my life, I do nothing anymore, I work, I pretend to be happy I don’t visit with my family, I lost touch with all my friends, I’m 41 years old, and well thats it