I’ve been working on this a LOT the past month or so. And it’s hard. I have no idea why. I’ve always thought of myself as a pretty grounded person, but I guess I’m not. When you really pay attention to the thoughts that rattle around in your head, what do they sound like? Mine need some adjusting. This all ties in with my existential crisis. One of the things that would make me much more present would be to just be satisfied with what I have. Which is a lot. I’ve been lucky and I’ve done a lot of things. It’s not really /stuff/ that I want. But I miss my friends and I miss being in a relationship. So that, subsequently, is what I seem to drift off into daydreams of more than anything else. When did I turn so freakin’ sappy? Geez…it’s embarrassing. But I try to keep myself grounded. I catch myself starting to slip off into random thoughts faster than I did. I’ve been reading a lot of books lately that have helped quite a bit, the tao te ching and the Bhagavad Gita were the most helpful. It’s strange, since I’m just now starting to understand what those texts are saying, even though I’ve read both books before. I think I’m reading them to really apply their teachings now, whereas I was just reading them more as a lesson in different cultures before. Meditating and yoga in the mornings seems to be the best thing to keep me focused. It’s a damn good thing that I’m a high-functioning daydreamer. Otherwise, I’d be living under a bridge somewhere. See? There’s another thing to be grateful for.