It feels as if it has been a long time since I fought back tears multiple times in a day. I have battled a lot in the past 3 years and I believe things are finally settling down. I have accepted all that I have had to go through and corny as it sounds feel stronger for going through them. I will be honest the loss of my brother was my breaking point. I have turned my greif to grace. I have acceoted and understood so much more and seen many things in life through new eyes. I still cry and have a moment or two. But it is nothing like it once was. Healing is a long long process in life. I didn’t think it took that long but it does. I hung in there, no turning to illegal outlets or prescribed outlets just looked with myself and found the strength I knew I had. Life is beautiful and I see that now.