Today in my yoga class we were doing poses where we held them for a long time, and the last pose was a forward bend. I thought the teacher said we could do a standing or seated forward bend, or plow. I did a standing forward bend and she came and asked why I was standing. (someone else had imitated me, actually, and was also doing a standing bend).

I switched to seated, but I felt a little embarrassed and a flash of anger. Why? I also thought that this is why I should do my own practice, because then we don’t all have to do the same thing (this was still out of anger).

Why did I feel anger and embarrassment for doing something different? For doing what felt best for my body?

I still have a ways to go before I fully accept myself, I guess.