For me there are all types of excitement. Kind of like all the reflections of pain. So since ive had such bad luck with pain and depresison in the past. It makes new and fun things that much more exciteing. Theres simple types like watching anime or reading manga, reading novels or watching movies. Where at certain parts I get so excited I have to pause it or even at times giggle (22 year old male giggleing I know pathetic right) But I figure at this point in time to deal with my depression the most important thing for me to do is find ways to be happy. I find to be happy most of the time i get excited.

I am not talking about the perverse kind of excitement or maybe it may just be around where I live they call that getting excited. But when something interests me to a point or something happy happens or im amazingly not dissapointed by something. I feel certains amount of excitement. You can judge my excitement by my reactions generally. Since ive been raised to not really care what other people think and I have always been anti social I dont hold back. If people dont like it, then they can leave me alone! : )