I’ve had this problem for my whole life. Nobody knew about it until a year ago when I told my parents and my boyfriend. It has put such a strain on my relationship with him that I sometimes wonder if I will lose him because of it. Everyday it is a challenge to get out of bed. I feel so sad and ashamed that I have missed out on many opportunities to have fun and just live my life and be happy. I push people away and get angry at them and try to find ways to blame them for my unhappiness. I’m not too overweight anymore because I work out alot and I’m in really good shape, but I’m tired…I’m just really tired of failing everyday. I no longer trust myself or like myself. I want to get better, but I wish I knew where to begin…