to be compassionate at a very early age from my mother. She has since passed and my father is all ihave left plus my 6 of 8 siblings . My father definitely tries my patience because he is soooo self critical and is very full of pain and regret. He won’t or is afraid to reach out to his other children because of how hard he wason them growing up, i was basically a seperate family because my parents had me 8 years after my sister so my dad was a different father with me. I have to work hard at our relationship but if i don’t then i will always regret that i didn’t do more…regardless of what transpired before i was born he is still my father and i LOVE him and RESPECT him so much, i just wish he truly believed that he deserves that. He is all i have left and i just really cannot imagine my life without him ..my world needs him only he just doesnt know it deep down.