It really is. It dried up my cuts in only 2-3 days. Which would take Neosporin a week to do.

I’ve been really antsy about picking my face. See, I lived in Maui, Hawaii but moved to California. And I’m staying at my aunt’s house while she’s in Santa Monica or Barbara, don’t remember. lol. But her mirrors are WAY TOO HONEST, let’s put it to that way. And the sides of my cheeks are getting those under pores or something, either from my 4 day in a row beach time or the now california sunshine…oven. ness. well anyway, that has gotten me to do little picking, the ones that dont show up the next day, but STILL. if i wanna stop, i have to COMPLETELY.

the vaseline is perfect for cuts, or anything (it’s a good lip balm! lol). And i haven’t done anything spectacularly stupid to my face since sometime in june. but yeah, i really want to stop completely.

and now i really have to, because of this reason…

CALIFORNIA’S BIG ON BEAUTY!

i mean, jeez man, maui’s like ho brah we go beach and stuff.
maui’s the total opposite of the fast lane.
and btw, i’m not hawaiian. lol.
but yeah, i will miss some of the things i could have done on maui.
but anyway, this is an entry on FACE PICKING. not a journal entry.

btw, face picking is stupid.
it might be “worse than cutting your wrists, in a way” lol as i have told my friends because of the depressing days you have because you face is a nightmare, and the more emotional pain that you recieve than physical, which i could be incorrect, but it is. in that way, it is worse. in that way, it is better.
i think if you really want to stop face picking look at your friends who have nice faces and look at yourself.
i use to subconciously pick my face right after meeting some friends. even my friends who had little acne and pimples, still had smooth and beautiful skin somewhere in their faces.
i use to have really, really nice skin.
i use to be this really confident girl before.
and that’s what bounced me back.
i don’t want guys to look at me and be like UGH.
i don’t want to look like i have pimples which are actually drying cuts from far away. because just like my dad, i don’t get pimples often. i got that lucky gene.
and i want to keep it.
i want to look beautiful for california.
i want to look beautiful for myself, and for other people looking at me.
because nothing’s really wrong with me.
nothing was ever really wrong with me, until face picking.
which is probably why i resorted to it.
i wanted myself to be, i don’t know.
but i found out that you know, everyone stresses out.
and by PICKING MY FACE, IT ONLY MADE MY STRESS WORSE.
so why make it worse?
why, instead of touching my face, i could get a stress ball?
or chew some gum?
or watch some tv to get my mind off of it?
or talk it out with a friend?
why make my life WORSE?
that’s what made me determined.
and i’m guessing that’s what made you, too.
so think about that.

P.S. nowadays(for stress), since i also love rainbow, i use a slinky. A SLINKY! oh the glory! : )