I have become apathetic, to a certain extent. I got 61% for my second year, or the first year that actually counted towards my degree.

I initially want to make excuses. I got 40% on one of my modules. I would have got an overall average of 64% if it hadn’t been for blasted Biblical Hebrew. But then again, making excuses is so twentieth-century, because everyone knows it’s all about blaming someone else these days. I cannot fall back on this one, because I could have worked harder, paid more attention, adopted better revision techniques prior to the exam, etc, etc. Even if I hadn’t messed that module up, 64% isn’t even that close to the 70% I need to get a first anyway.

Part of me feels like the heat is on. I’d need to get 79% next year to get a first. I feel like that’s one of those mountains that I just can’t climb.

So the question changes. What is realistic? I’d like to get 65% for my degree overall, so I can console myself with the thought that at least I’ve got a GOOD 2:1.

So there. It’s all about pruning the old plans, repainting them and making them sit a little better on your hips.

I’d still love to get a first, though. Je sulke.