I just used this word to describe myself to a friend in the IM window.

This isn’t Being Impeccable by a long shot.

I can’t help but feel this way at this very moment, though.
I’m hitting a wall with the jobsearch and it’s affecting my mood.

I need to have my physical Ineterim Permit so I can apply for the City and County hospital job, and I have yet to receive the hard copy of my card, because the state board of nursing is backed up.

I need my RN but I couldn’t schedule the exam until August 8th.

I thought I was in one residency, but what I was in was the pile of applications and resumes that are being considered for the job. I called the recruiter yesterday and she must have called the ICU director, who called me and left a message saying to call her back after 4 pm, which I did, and it just rang and rang, until about 4:30, when she answered it and said she’d have to call me back; she was still in meetings.

I’m no fool, “meetings” means “interviews.”

Since this residency was supposed to start August 1st, I’m assuming what she would have said was “thank you, we filled the position”

And since she didn’t call back, and hasn’t yet today, I’m thinking more and more this is the message I’ll get.

The other Residency that I had fell thru when the ICU director of that hospital decided they wanted to interview and train their own candidates, without putting them thru the residency first. I apparently didn’t get that one either, but was offered having my resume thrown into the pile of people clammoring for the med surg openings. Needless to say, I respectfully declined.

I have this interview next friday. The dog and pony show. Where they will quiz me, rake me over the coals and see if I’m the best person out of the many applying to pay for my own training, which they’ll reimburse IF they decide they like me…and I’ll get to travel 2 hours in one direction twice a week for the pleasure of this self-paid training.

I’m so sick of this grind.
it’s really working me.