is just me trying reeeeeally hard too maintain my temper and my tounge…..Two of my children have just pushed me beyond what i can take and i think it is mostly because at their ages they KNOW better how to treat one another and how they should know what I expect of them and yes i do realize they are children but they know how to read and they know what chores and behavior is acceptable and they just make this soooo difficult because then the 4th and 5th child think it is alright to act the same way and to hit and hurt eachother which is NOT ok!! I’m so at my breaking point and just in tears, i feel reeeeeally angry with dh too because i just feel like i don’t get a break or feel very supported but maybe i am just being awfully emotional on that part. I am at a total loss as to what i am to do to turn this around. I either want to take the two older ones and smash their heads together like my dad did whenever we fought or i want to just run as far away asi can…...i need a break and i can’t get one and that i think is what is totally doing mein…......