it has been like 2 months that i got fired of my last job. it was a really good job with a good salary and i was doing friendships with my job partners. it was very sad and difficult for me because i want it really bad. i was in a probatory period but i dont passed the period so i got fire. omg i write it and still hurts. i dont remember and i dont want to, why they took that decision, i just know i tryed to do my best. when it happens my self steem went down very bad but only in that aspect of my life. i went to the beach to think what was happennig with me, why i was failing in that aspect of my life. because it was the 2nd time. the first one dont was like a fired thing because it was a season job but they told me that if i realized a good job i would get it like a permanet job. but it didnt happens and i dont felt completly bad but this 2nd time is worst. for these months i tryed to avoid pass near the place of my last job like i did in the first one. but in the first one i came back to buy some things so i saw again some of my old job partners and they still remember me. it was cool but i was chaking, i dont know why… it was so stupid like they were some special to me. i think is only that i thinked about that job for a long time that maked in my head some weird thing about that, i dont know maybe i felt embarrassed about all the thing, thats all. like now im just embarrassed to see my old partners… im a little fear for all this, what if i get a new job and fired again? not, i dont think so…no more seasons jobs for me, no more sell jobs for me. i just dont serve for sells jobs, thats it..i found it when i was in the beach…but know i have to let pass it by…i want to go to the store and say hello to everyone there, well, just to the ones that i liked… let see what i do…i just dont like to talk about and feels good to write about it, its helping me to let pass it by and get over it….
and im still have to hear my partners in my college when i came back from vacations, questioning me about the thing…why i have to say that thigs to everyone? to get my self steem high? well, next time let your mouth close until it gets completly permanent.