intothebreach

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Another gift....  — 11 months ago

Hi, when I was on vacation I got her another gift. I knew I did not have to, but I also knew it would give me another chance to see her. God, I am pathetic, a sad little man who is pouring out his heart into a fucking computer because he is to scared and to just unwilling to get hurt again. For all I know of love and how to help others with there problems I am an complet and whole hearted moron when it comes to fixing my own. Sometimes I wish I could no longer feel love like I used to. No longer have a heart that beats for another. But, I don’t know if I can go back, I don’t even want to try. Here is the gift that I receved, love, the gift and the curse.

Aug 16, 2007, 10:39PM PDT 2 cheers

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septembertwentyseven stayed work late, alone.

That’s so sweet of you! I don’t think you are pathetic at all. You are just cautious this time after what you have been through with your past relationship. It’s only natural that you do feel that way. Afterall, it’s just human instinct to avoid things which was painful to us. (Just like having a phobia to ride a car after a vehicular accident.)
You will resolve this fear of yours in your own time. Just have faith.
Have you read Coelho’s book The Alchemist?
I love to share you these lines:

  • In his pursuit of the dream, he was being constantly subjected to tests of his persistence and courage. So he could not be hasty, nor impatient. If he pushed forward impulsively, he would fail to see the signs and omens left by God along his path.
  • ... _ And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it._

Aug 16, 2007, 11:45PM PDT | Thread | Respond to this

intothebreach

The Alchemist...

Hi, sounds like a good book. Thanks, I just get to those points where I lose sleep because I am thinking about her and I feel pathetic, it is frustrating.

Aug 17, 2007, 10:43AM PDT | Respond to this

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Aug 17, 2007, 12:49AM PDT

intothebreach

Hi.

Hi, well that is how I begin most converstions so I figure I should do that here to. I hope that you are having some more luck than I am, and thanks for the words of encouragement.

Aug 17, 2007, 10:45AM PDT | Respond to this


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