sounds like we have the same problem, because I am the same! I can go for ages without alcohol and not even miss it, but as soon as i have one its all over and i end up getting trashed.
lol its nice to know that i’m not the only one who does that!!
most of my friends(who drink) just end up doing stupid stuff when they are smashed like falling out of trees or doing stripteases in the middle of the street. I can hold myself back from doing that stuff but i cant seem to keep a grip on my moods when i’m drunk, and i wasn’t always like that! i think maybe i have been drinking for too long.
lol I don’t need to get drunk to do dumb stuff like falling over and being silly, I seem to do good enough job at it when i’m sober haha!

Its so hard to quit something that has become such a habit and move on from it.
And its so nice to know that i’m not the only one! so good luck with staying sober!

Yeah, I go out and drink out of habit, scared that i’m gonna miss out if i dont. but then i realised that it rarely gets better! and its funny because when you try to stop drinking you start thinking, well what do i do instead? if i dont drink what do i do for fun?
I read somewhere that the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over but expecting different results! so I guess that i’m insane!!!

good luck with everything!!