A bit farther, actually. Add around 40pages from the first section that isn’t counted in my wordcount. But I’ll stick to saying 172 for organizationals purposes.

It’s been painful. I do a lot of avoiding. But I think last night I came to realize that what I need to do is focus on the large picture. And I shouldn’t freak out about the feeling that my book sucks. I need to fix the problems. Work on character. Keep the conflict, rather than making the characters all nicey n ice. Add details.

All in all, none of the problems are fatal. All fixable. My second pass, when I actually RE-WRITE the whole thing will be when I can fix it up.

In my dreams, I use September to do that… at least part of it.

I want to get my writing habit back up. I don’t really expect myself to be able to all of a sudden start writing a novel from zero, do I? Where am I going to find the time? I have to build the habit up, and I think I’m going to need some time to do so.

I am nervous about Nanowrimo. I’m afraid that I won’t be up to it.

Piffle.

I don’t need to indulge in baseless fears. Last November, I wrote twice as much as I needed to. If I can write an hour a day, I can get it done. I don’t know if you can tell by my posts, but I write a lot. And I do it fast. I am a proliic writer… I just have a problem finishing and showing my work.

So, yeah. Back to the editing. I really have to commit to doing it, even when I’m tired, or wanting to do something not as confrontational.