I realized I’m still doing this but I’m seeing the subtle ways I’m doing it, which is double-checking myself with others. I’ll hold strong in an opinion and then turn around and check with someone else for validation. This needs to stop!
I also noticed that in seeking approval from others I’ve made myself less than them. I’m much smarter than I let on, more fun, etc. But I suppress these things around others for fear of being unaccepted by them. So lame.