I finally realize that love is a gift and that maybe God put this soul in my life for a reason. I should be thankful I was able to have the experience at some point in my life and that I’ll be able to identify it if it comes along again.
It is said that unrequited love can be inspirational. Yes, as long as I feel love for one person, I can sublimate it towards everyone else I meet. I can turn the feelings into a kind of universal love and use the energy for random acts of kindness. Rather than think of it as being unable to let go, I am trying to think of it as growing into something better and paying this wonderful man’s kindness forward to everyone else that I meet.
I don’t know if this makes sense to anybody. This new viewpoint is helping me open up to others again and helping me find a new purpose for moving forward in my life.
Take care everyone, best wishes and may you find that which you are looking for!
Edit September 20, 2009: I am somewhat hesitant to share this. The most interesting thing happened once I realized that I would never be able to stop thinking about ‘him’ and would always appreciate this man. Within a few months of the original posting, this found his way back into my life as a friend. To be quite honest about it, we had a twenty year hiatus.
It is interesting what happens once we open ourselves up to the beautiful experience of love whether or not we feel it is returned.
I am learning that opening ourselves up to love brings it to us, often in the forms least expected.
May you feel love wherever you go.
Cheers to you.