I actually did shave it off. I did it under intense emotional strain, so its creation caused a calm kind of ease. I think the phrase is CONTROL, hey we all need it. Shaving my hair off re-established it. Its gonna grate me to look back on this and remember why i did it, to have a reminder of sheer constant regret and pain. Regret is too clean a word for this, lets say disappointment. But the hair is great, very liberating.